Wondering

hmm.. these days have been wondering.. what are real friends??

Few days ago, a long-time-no-contact friend suddenly contact me again. At first I was happy cause at the same time I was thinking about her. Then I told my dear, and he said "mesti ada udang di sebalik batu" (lol, suddenly malay pulak), cause there are some things happened before that. I was hoping she didn't find me for another reason, just because she missed me. So I asked her how's she now, and she said she's happily joining E-MAJOR (the damned) and she's very happy right now.

'owhh...' (ok, I can accept that)

then she said, 'Jin Ing, now I'd applied for a new programme, and 1 of the task is to contact back my old friend. So I thought that I could contact u ^^'

'ohw, okayy.' (GREAT. So mmg ade udang di sebalik batu.)

'but of course I didn't contact just for this programme lar, cause we really didn't contact for a long time already.'

'like I care'

'btw, can you help me write an essay anything about me? then pls send to CCY. thx~'

'......sure no prob' (memories coming back. DAMNED)


.SO FAKE.

she even said ily, muackz, i miss u... as if it's so easy to say it. For me, I won't say it if isn't out from my heart. how can these people say these things so easily as if drinking water?

If this what you call FRIEND, I'm sorry, I can't afford it dude. Back off from my life.

Busy!

.phew.

still exam-ing =)

these days busy with exams and choir and church... haha. I love being busy ^^

my church friend actually got shocked when he knows i teach choir. cause before that he want me to follow him to vocal lessons. LOL. I still have much space to improve, so I'll go de.. but really expensive weih!! RM80 per lesson!! O.o

will update blog after exam~

tataz~

I'm being quite emotional these days..
easily get sad or touchie la..
haiz.
hate myself being like that.
time to be the OLD me~

Alone....

yup, as my title says, i'm gonna be alone for a few days ;(

friends are going to cameron highland (school trip) only i can't get to go! fish. okay, I did take this harshly cause I'm gonna be the ONLY chinese in class, the ONLY girl sitting behind and the ONLY girl sitting there daydreaming. I can even picture the ME 2 days ahead. oh, the insanity!

today Enyi cooked her fried rice!! yum yum!! it's mainly pumpkin with dried shrimp. ohh, I'm gonna be so darn fat! muahaha. well, credits to the fried rice but not to what's happening next. our gang has 6ppl all together, so as I'm not going, it makes 5, which they're having difficulties of: "OMG, how are we suppose to sit on the bus!?!?".

=.=|||

so, as they're discussing how to solve this huge problem, there are some excitements too:

"oo, let's watch orphan together!!" (somehow I felt ignored..ugghh)

"where are we suppose to sleep? are we sleeping together?? who's bringing sleeping bag and pillows???" (I don't have much patience, although I'm working on it >.<)

"aiya, how to sit later!? you want to sit with xxx, then me le!?" "I'll go sit with teacher la.." (makes me feel guilty as I made the odd number)


so, I can't get mad at them could I? so I cried to release the 'heat'. phew, feels more better after that. NOW, to my friends: pls don't keep chatting about this in FRONT of me as I'll feel sooo damn pissed off or I'll feel damnnnned sad. You guys chatting there so happily about the trip when I can't!

well, the bright side is, I get to eat Michelle's kek batik!! oh yeah, surely I'll get fat this time :)

tataz!

Enjoy your trip girls!

Normal Day

Firstly, I'm OK with him now =)
Now I know what should I do, I'll concentrate on it, but i won't neglect u dear, don't worry. hehe

well, it's school-reopen with stage-package---> perform on "stage", singing 'merdeka~~~' with the flag. honestly, if it's not at school, I'm sure it won't turn out to be so bad. but...haiz. let me tell you the story why am I so furious about this.

firstly, when we get on the stage, the music didn't come out!! so I'm standing there with my big butt facing the audiences with fires burning inside. to tell the truth, if the music isn't coming any sooner, I'm gonna shout out loud. LOL. then, when the music finally came out, it's getting SOFTER, softer, softer......then no more sound. DISASTER. its a miracle that I didn't faint of anger. haha. This will be the FIRST and the LAST I'm doing this. I'll only do it for REAL ART's sake, not for these clown-performances. not boasting myself, but this is really sooooooo low class performance. oh well, it's over and I'm NOT ever gonna do this again.

then we went back to class, and found out that my friend went out 2times, others were just staying at home like me :) class is like usual, nothing special, just that final exam is coming...T_T. gotta add oil! not gonna waste the whole year by honeymoon.. hehe. but my physics is just as bad as ZERO. lol.

My dear is having his trial now.. gotta support him! and I don't think I'll take form6. wakaka.
will update more news a.s.a.p. =) please read Jin Ing's blog next time when ur free! ^^

The Right Path

I'm back! haha. actually I want to update my things recently, but i'm not. i'm telling that i chosen the right way =)


I told him that I choose God first. 2 choices:- he become a true christian or we'll go on ourselves.

Its not easy really, but i think it's God's will, in whatever choice he made. I can feel that God is with me, and mom was proud of me for having such courage to tell him. I cried because I DO love him, very very much. But it's no use if he's not the one God has chosen for me. Honestly, I'm scared that the fact he may leave me. It does hurt alot. I dunno what will happen to him or me, but I know God'll do something about this. I felt that God is speaking to me.

To my school friends, I dunno can I go to school tomorrow as I can't really tell the whole story without crying, so bear with me ya =)

mountain climbing

Finally I'm BACK!!!!! (just a short while though. XD)

well, my fingers are getting itchy for blogging since I'm 'banned' (due to someone), but it's ok. at least people noticed I didn't blog for ages. hehe.

ok, skip the intro part. ON LABOUR DAY, I did something that I didn't even bother to do it. that is>>>EXERCISE. you know what exercise??? MOUNTAIN CLIMBING. cool huh? for a person that can't even run for 3laps of padang, climbing a mountain was super duper tough man. but i did it in the end. :)

The mountain was somewhere nearby Sri Cempaka/Cheras Awana (I dunno where). the mountain issss "Ah Pek" mountain (which means uncle mountain in cantonese). there are lots of people, so I'm not scared, only fear of fainting when I'm climbing halfway. haha. I went with my family. Chief Advisor---Mr. Yeo Chin Uwi (my dad), Captain---Mr. Junior Yeo (my bro), Co-Captain---me and our only member in the group---Ms. Yeo Ling Ling (my mom). at about 11.05a.m., we reached the mount. at first, I'm ok. loads of trees, mushy land, weird sounds ect ect. when I'd just walked a quarter of the journey, I'm panting like.....hell. lol. when we reached the 3rd station, it says '4,000 feet'. I was like, 'OMG. we walked that high already!? are we reaching??' haha. but, there are 6stations. sob. only halfway. so, we kept on climbing and climbing and climbing....until we reached the 5th. there are 2roads there: 1 to the submit and the other 1 to the waterfall. BUT, there's a major problem. NO MORE WATER!! everthough our Captain wants to go to the submit (applause applause), Chief ad and Co-captain says,'NO.' so, we walked down, or more like running down the mount. yay. running, running, running.......... until we took the wrong path. instead of going to our starting point, we went OPPOSITE our starting point. disaster. luckily, there are uncles that are familiar with the area, and told us how to go back. but, we decided to reach the bottom first then search for the car. I had to salute our Chief Advisor for walking all the way the the other side, getting back the car and come back to fetch us. hahaha. till then, I noticed how important a car is. muahaha. then, we went back home, enjoyed our chicken rice and coconut juice, bathe and REST. (except for me, busying composing and editing the poem song again. lol)

P.S.: only I had muscle pain. the other 3ppl doesn't. SOB. that's for not exercising. boohoo...

*dunno wad's for title*

GRR!! so pissed off. I can't post my darling photos on friendsterrr. :(

sooo sadd weih. missed fs-ing & blogging. haha. althou dear can't on9. tt's 1 sad point.

exam comin lo~ so scared. 1st day is gonna be BM and PHYSICS. i'm gonna teach u all how to FAIL in PHYSICS sooner or later. MUAHAHA. (i'm going crazy these days.thx to add maths, phy. bear with me.)

btw, my choir's music camp is comin!! excited!! gotta sleep at school for 2nights~~ just gives me the creeps when knowing that. you guys know schools got loads of "stories" right? including mine too. duhh. anyway, not trying to frighten you guys, hope you'll see me coming back in one piece!! hehe. i'll blog of can after the camp. BEWAREE

pif. bro's starting to complaining. gotta off now. tataz! see you guys nex time!