Another normal school day. as I scroll down my facebook, I start to think back and ponder something. Thinking back the times when we always been together almost every weekday, chit chatting and making idiotic jokes around, gossiping (oops), and laughing everyday. That's when we're still young.
As time goes by, everyone started to focus on their studies more, and thus, reducing the laughter we made before. But at least, we're still seeing each other everyday and updating around.
Alas, we graduated. Everyone started to fly all over the world, including me. Leaving all the loved ones behind, I, alone come to a foreign country to pursue my studies. At least, I got my boyfie with me. But the love from boyfie alone is not enough.
As 1year and 9months pass by, now I am in the 2nd semester of my 4years degree. Made new friends, quite along well, yeah I still laughed everyday. But as I sit in front of my computer, loneliness crept in. Seeing all of the facebook updates, all the "fake images" around, I felt more lonely, emptiness, sadness, all together. I guess it's because I'm not in my comfort zone, so I started to feel lonely.
Moreover, as I see you updating almost everyday, but not a single "hello?" for me, alas, disappointment. Of course, I can't expect you to "hi" me everyday, but after 1year and 9months, I, feel the utter most. You may ask, "Why can't you "hi" me instead?". Well, because I feel so tiny small and fearing that if I disappear, you may not even notice it. Because you have your portion of caring enough in your comfort zone, that's why you can't understand. I, being stressed out almost everyday listening to the 60%-understanding-lecture, having assignments every week that'll burst your head out, doing part time job every weekend, tiring.
I truly fear that this friendship will just end silently and not knowingly.
Rationally, I knew this would happen. Still, hoping the least that it won't happen.
21/11/12.
