A letter of the deep.

Another normal school day. as I scroll down my facebook, I start to think back and ponder something. Thinking back the times when we always been together almost every weekday, chit chatting and making idiotic jokes around, gossiping (oops), and laughing everyday. That's when we're still young.

As time goes by, everyone started to focus on their studies more, and thus, reducing the laughter we made before. But at least, we're still seeing each other everyday and updating around.

Alas, we graduated. Everyone started to fly all over the world, including me. Leaving all the loved ones behind, I, alone come to a foreign country to pursue my studies. At least, I got my boyfie with me. But the love from boyfie alone is not enough.

As 1year and 9months pass by, now I am in the 2nd semester of my 4years degree. Made new friends, quite along well, yeah I still laughed everyday. But as I sit in front of my computer, loneliness crept in. Seeing all of the facebook updates, all the "fake images" around, I felt more lonely, emptiness, sadness, all together. I guess it's because I'm not in my comfort zone, so I started to feel lonely.

Moreover, as I see you updating almost everyday, but not a single "hello?" for me, alas, disappointment. Of course, I can't expect you to "hi" me everyday, but after 1year and 9months, I, feel the utter most. You may ask, "Why can't you "hi" me instead?". Well, because I feel so tiny small and fearing that if I disappear, you may not even notice it. Because you have your portion of caring enough in your comfort zone, that's why you can't understand. I, being stressed out almost everyday listening to the 60%-understanding-lecture, having assignments every week that'll burst your head out, doing part time job every weekend, tiring.

I truly fear that this friendship will just end silently and not knowingly.

Rationally, I knew this would happen. Still, hoping the least that it won't happen.

21/11/12.

dream.

recently there's an assignment I had to do with the title "my dream".

my dream during childhood, now, 10 years from now and picturing myself 30 years later from now.

my dream was to perform on stage. 

but now, i want to go anywhere and be a wanderer. or a musician. 

is it a form of me escaping this tired endless road? I don't know. 

oh how i wish :P

btw, i'm in love with this guy now. you just watch runningman, and you'll understand why. muahahahaha.

pictures that speaks more than a thousand words.

 ahahaha rupanya I'd abandoned my blog for decades. oh well, it's picture-story time today :P

darling teman me - otw to interview for part time job

le me waiting for ze train to come - otw to part time job

my bday present from darling 

 yum yum <3 bad="bad" cant="cant" eat="eat" i="i" now.="now." p="p" sick="sick" t="t" too="too">

le me waiting for ze shuttle bus to school. haih. all day bus, train and walking. 

muahaha Kappa sushi with darling. cool mini train! *train again =.=*

ehehe cute train with cute boy. xP

le me trying on ze new colours in my shop ;P

indian beer? hahahha

indian curry!! yum!

a friend's birthday :D

birthday boy ~

two big fat whales. keke

nice & fresh yogurt.

 le me drawing with my shop's gel eyeliner. muahahhaa.

and lipstick :P

 meehhhhhhh~~

le me and my Japanese buddy @ spaland <3 nbsp="nbsp" p="p">

sweating....

relaxing...

psy & g-dragon! :O

some nice buffet restaurant :)

and spam rice

and my newly updated baby! and new wallpaper hehee.

*being thoroughly sick during my 6 days holiday. SAD

*got another scholaship! wohhooo!!

*sad cant celebrate with my baby this year ;((

a change in everything.

so sick. yesh, thanks to the changing of season, now i'm officially sick. ==

i hoped i would become more immune to this, but sadly not. haiz.

anyways, recently i joined some clubs and guess what, i'm gonna perform on stage this coming school festival!

WOHOO!

hope by then i can be 120% recovered and in all good condition. T^T

and a Happy Mother's Day. 

love you and missing you mummy.

okay, time for ze sick person to rest. ciao!

4 years

okay, before i start giving my 4-years-anni sweets out, just a little 'recently-me' :P

although most of the lectures are DIFFICULT & BORING, the class i delight most will be

CHEMICAL EXPERIMENT.

or chem. lab.

oh whatever.

pretty right~?

crystallized salt.

*bling bling*

and dunno which night was it,

i had MCD as dinner and watching news by using dear's hp.

LOL.

and this was my valentines choco.

yum ♥

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okay, about my 4 years anni.

that day my class finished at 5pm.

and i was VERY hungry.

mind you, people here eats very early.

so we went to BENNIGANS ~

yeah strawberry passion.

my sirloin

dear's set

and meat.

it was kinda spicy, but still deliciouso ♥

we played with their ipad. oh yeah, they had ipads on every table.

hahahaha kids game. but still fun, colouring dinosaurs.

waiting for the subway train to go home.

after we reached the station, it was still early.

so we went to KARAOKE~

*it was a friday night. night is always young.*

after singing k, it was only 11pm. so, we called our friends that studied together at language.

*DRINKING TIME*

and we reached home at 2.30am.

well, once in a blue moon should be fine. :P

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one of our Malaysian senior is going back. so we had a farewell dinner.

seafood---clams.

from abalone to scallops.

really sweetttoooooo ♥

and we had karaoke again. haha.

my tired face and dear's new hat.

so far, i'm doing good i guess.

made new korean friends.

learning new stuffs.

yeah, i'm ok.

*didn't knew that it's already 4years. haha. love you always ♥*

pieces of me

okay, this is going to be a VERY LONG POST.

if you don't like to read, better stop here. haha~

testing out one of the photo apps.

valentine's chocolate for myself.

my LC look hahaha.

there's a Tangkak beef noodles near taman maluri JJ. huhu~ yumyum.

*drooooooooools*

a wedding dinner. me and my bro.

nasi goreng. missed it.

oh yeah, i got 1st last korean language sem. yippie~

on the way to hotspring. hahaha.

my last dinner before flying back. claypot chicken rice T.T

LCCT's oldtown. miss my mama

1st lunch after arriving home. pork rice soup. yum yum~

my dessert few days ago.

macroni. or whatever it is. YUCKS. only sweetness and nothing else. EWW

buffet~

and sing k. a bottle for everyone. COOL.

that's my short update for the past few weeks. haha. including before going back, reached KL and after reaching Busan. muahaha.

my school life's really cool. why?

because i'm the only foreigner in my major and they treat me like some going-to-extinct animal. HAHA.

so yeah, seniors took cared of me, friends also took cared of me, so it's so far so good i guess.

just that i have to learn EVERYTHING in korean.

that's the killing part. 囧

*sobs*