Recently

recently, I was busying sick-ing and resting until I haven't study.


recently, he was so busy and I missed him alooooooooooooooooooooooot.


recently, I skipped church and I kinda missed our happy times. felt kinda 'isolated'.


recently, I've been busying doing my scholarship and stressssssssssssssing.




oh the insanity!

i'm so DEAD.

hahas. not really hardworking about blogging already.

went to grandma's bday last saturday. it was fun. knowing my aunt is going to give birth to a baby next month! another baby~~ and wondering when's my youngest uncle going2 get married. hehe.

im feeling so dead because:

-my menses are KILLING me

-don't feel like studying

-trials is just weeks away!!

omg. im just so so dead.

LOL

Choir Competition!

well, sorry for the long-time-no-post.. one is bcz i'm lazy, the other one is bcz I can't online as much as u guys do. ;(

nvm abt that, this is the most unforgettable choir competition I ever had. rmb, is the MOST UNFORGETTABLE. why??

erm.

read it then. ;)

we gathered at school [SJK(C) BATU 11, CHERAS] around 9a.m. (although I'm late a little. hehe). then we started warming up until 10++ and Wei Xian arrives (now he's REALLY late).

So, as USUAL, a few lectures and "kind words" from me about their singing, and we started to help them make-up and changing uniforms. We got ready around 10.30 and waiting for the 'HONKK' sound.

now, the bus is supposed to arrive at 10.30, but we still gave him grace for 15minutes. then we called him.

"tut tut.. tut tut.. nombor yang anda panggil tidak didapat dalam perkhidmatan kami.. tut.. tut.. tut."

(@.@)??........

(O.O)!!!!!!!!!

great, so the bus driver went missing. COOL.

Teachers n parents started calling everywhere and everyone for a bus.

why were we so panicked?

bcz, our avenue is at Shah Alam, and the registration time is only until 12.30. (all the principal's fault for hiring such a CHEAP bus).

so, we continued practising until a bus arrived. it was already 12p.m.. The teachers were soooo stresssssssssed out man.

We reached there abt 1.15pm, thank GOD we're so famous for being champions that the organisers were willing to wait for us.

so we tested around the stage and started SCOLDING again. [kids].

then we waited..waited..waited till finally it's our turn.

I was so nervous that I kept running around.

This felt much worse than watching horror movies.

I wonder how can the teachers made it.

hehe.

Then, ANNOUNCEMENT TIME.

"Persembahan terbaik.. jatuh kepaDA... Jiao Er's children choir!!"

*what?? no CHAMPION?? aww.....................................................................................................

"Juara jatuh kepada.................................."

*bip bop bip bop bip bop 200times per minute*

"JIAO ER'S CHILDREN CHOIR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!"

oh oh oh oh oh oh OH MY GAWD!!!!

I sort of forgot what did I do, but I think other people sees me as a psychic.

I think I jumped up and down, left and right.

okay, im exaggerating. But I did jump off my chair.

haha.

Then we went down at 5pm. The bus driver said he'll fetch some group at Ampang so he'll be late.

so we camwhore a 'little' only get down. then.... we waited until 7.30.

this is just so ridiculous!

still the principal's fault. so much for saving a few hundred bucks.

URGH.

reached cheras abt 8.30 and went to teacher's house for dinner. yum yum~

I felt PROUD of my choir, or my half choir. at least I did taught them, and they got champion. btw, my school started winning since my time. ^^

P.S.: thx Wei Xian for fetching me when Darling's not around. =)

lang tengah =)

arrive at terengganu at 7a.m. =)

my great uncle a.k.a. mom's uncle with my cousin

at china street

another cute cousin =)

my beloved grandma n cousin. we're at the dock waiting for the boat at this moment.

my 3rd aunt with her son ;)

aww... ain't he adorable~!

our luggages.. hehe

my cousin, Xin. too bad her sister can't follow this trip, thanks to her college. ;(

on the boat. thank goodness I don't have seasick, the captain 'drives' crazily! :S

at night, this resort provides KARAOKE service from 9-12. on the 1st night, the room is ours. muahaha.

busy choosing songs

me & Xin

we spend our free time playing mahjongs. LOL. it's too hot for snorkeling anyway.

innocent look

i LOVE this pic. he's just so cute! ^^

can u see the diff of his skin? SUNBURNsss.

I sincerely admire his courage to stand outside the boat when we're about to take off.

sayonara, Lang Tengah. =)

on the bus, going back home. =)

i just can't help putting more of his pic. he's just soo adorableeee~! ^^

-THE END-

btw, it took 8hours to reach home. my butt hurts! :S

Vacation!

will update about my vacation soon. got snorkeling, hiking, search for 'blue-sand-insect' (?). wearing sexy swimsuit! (lol, jz jk.)

exam's over, but i'm still not relax yet. maybe I know there's a big one awaiting for me. kinda start to get used to study. suddenly feel weird without studying.


:S


*gonna enjoy my holiday!


;D

Feelings

HAPPY

-for Michelle kena revenge and her surprise party
-only paper 3's and chemistry left for me
-Lang Tengah trip is coming!
-bookfairs!!
-august... =)



UNHAPPY

-didn't see you for so so long. =(

*erm.. that's all?





;D

these days busying exam.. suddenly i love to study. ohno. short circuiting. haha.

my computer speakers are DEAD! so sad, cant video talk with him. =(

after my exam i'll straight away fly to Lang Tengah, somewhere nearby Redang. can go SNORKELING! ;D

not posting much, but happy for my darling, which he was quite down few days ago, and finally back to normal. working hard to determine my path (although the One to decide is not me). feel like being an opera singer. LOL. maybe going australia, maybe dunno. haha.


*i'll be bz studying, so jz understand la dear. u oso mz study urself o.
*my indian neighbour is finally here....*ohno*
*want to go to the mines bookfair! 4th-13th of june. who's coming?? x)
*will be following school trip to Kelantan!!
*will be cutting activities for studying.




=)

man, why comics version are always better than cartoon versions!? comics are expensive.. sobssssss.

;)

really addicted to comics again! x)



anyone joining me???


:D



*missing u*


*hearts*

why people can be so fake??

being so nice with me. and being nice with the person which you don't want me to join. uhuh.

I don't like fakers.

oops

i just noticed someone has a same blog skin as mine.

I like being special.

Ishhh.

*blink*swts*

looking forward for tomorrow! :D

我没事

没关系。

我会尝试改变自己。

如果你们真得不能容忍我，

我会了解。

因为这就是我。

只是你们不够了解我。

我会有离开的念头，

你们知道为什么吗？？

我是承受不了孤单。

宁愿放手也不要孤单一个人。

因为我已经受够了孤单的滋味。

这也要感谢那个解开我的“孤单咒”的人。
=)

为什么。。。

Missing =(

haiz.. it's only 3weeks! starting to miss like crazy. helpppppppp.

My fault?!

hey, I have my own priority ok?


although I said I'll go with u tis friday, but I have slight change of plan to go with my students to compete. and u didn't re-confirm with me whether to eat or not. before u ask, u should re-confirm with me whether I can go or not. now, ur blaming me bcz u ALREADY inform the people, and because I CAN'T GO so all the blame is on me now.


maybe it's my fault that I didn't tell u earlier that I'm not going this friday, but u could have ask me again. is it ENTIRELY my fault?


fine. if u want to be angry with me because I MADE WRONG, go ahead.


I'm really so pissed off right now.

I want something huggable.

=(

projectss

well. the old ones go, the new ones come.

I'm happy that i FINALLY finished my BI oral, Sej presentation and BM presentation. phew! last one will be the physics. Mikko, don't forget to bring it next week!

'unfortunately', I had to help out primary school's choir and the poetry competition. I'm happy to gain experience, but the process just squeeze my brain juices out! my brain's gonna go dehydration. LOL.

and yesterday I went to ns camp with Nic, Ken and Steph. quite a fun experience, being with the sarawakians and sabahrians. too bad the classroom stinks. and Jerrica, I can't believe u actually forgot my voice! T.T

why you're not here yet?

Ching Ming

hmm. as usual, waking up early in the morning and go to the graveyard. the funny thing is, there ARE HOUSES beside the graveyard. my uncle said it was feng shui. LOL. great feng shui master who wants a great adventure everyday by building houses beside a graveyard. HAHA.

woke up at 6 and 'sao mu' till 10. phew. dunno how many graves had I cleaned. then went back early cause dad's not around. at China. hmph! then I thought I can on msn and chat. who knows this STUPID thing won't on. argghh! so, I installed SKYPE and I'm NOT gonna use MSN anymore.

stupidd.

LOL!

today went back home and met something funnie. haha. when I walked along the 7-e road, a van horned me. when I looked at them, 4-5 men are inside saying "HI~~~~". the sight was so beautiful man. uneven teeth, which are yellow and black, and smiling so BROADLY. LOL. horrible.

*blink*blink*


He's overreacting. LOL




I miss him alot.

Shout out Loud!!!

ish larhh. feeling like want to release everything larh. so many things happened, so many presentation and homeworks, DAMNED, and worse is I can't on9 often!! ish larh.

I miss u so much. sobs.

yesterday went to Joe's house, played piano and chit chated. love her so much. my 14 years friend. =)

today went to school and LOADS of things happened. although not in my class larh. quite pity my friends which kena. sobs.

these days din chat with him long-ly. feeling kinda down larh. good thing that the homeworks are distracting me. sobs.

When You're Gone
-Avril Lavinge-

smile?

haha. so ironic. i wrote smile on the subtitle, yet now i can't even really smile.

I can get over it when I'm hanging out with my fellas, but I'm scared of being alone. Loads of thoughts started to roam in, the fear, the invisible darkness..... as if I'm some kind of depression ppl =.=

Ups and Downs.

I still miss you dear....

what to do???

;(

3.2.3

today is a special day for me and my dear. 2 years anniversary!! :)

after school, we went to leisure mall to eat and change sth. hehe. we went to SAKAE SUSHI, which i kept pronounced it as SAKAI SUSHI. oops. haha.



then went to his house and take some last-pics. lols.



well, he'll be leaving tmr. still need to thank my dearest Jc's, which kept on encourage me. so don't forget to bring somemore tissues!!! :D

The Final Countdown.




6days.




hope i can survive.

How could I?

*ehem*

I know I didn't update my blog, and I'm lazy to update about CNY and stuffs.. (sorry)

I don't like to waste my time seeing those pictures uploaded. argh.

and I'm gonna post in chinese!

星期四你知道你中了韩国的奖学金。。

你第一个通知的人就是我。。

一听到我真的是兴奋，又替你开心！毕竟不是每个人都能有这个荣欣。。

可是，再仔细想想。。你会离开我五年。。

一想到这个，我就不能开心了。。

也知道你能陪我的时间不多。。

心情就更低落了。。

这几天的晚上，一旦孤单一个人，这些恐怖的思想霸占了我的脑。。

眼泪就会自动地流出来。。

好难入睡。。

五年啊。。

五年里，什么事都能发生。。

再见也可能演变成永别。。

我知道我不应该这样，应该对你有信心，别胡思乱想。。

我很理智的告诉我自己，对，如果连这样的暂时分离也能造成我们的分手，那么长痛不如短痛。。

可是。。

我还是会不安啊！

已经习惯和你在一起的日子，你走了，我呢？？

往好处想想，我也可以专心读书，搞好我的音乐，然后去那个奖学金去国外深造。。。

可是。。我会很不舍得啊！

看到你这样开心，我是不应该有这样的心态和想法。。

我也知道你读了这篇文章你会很不开心。。

可是我还是普通人类啊。。。

一看到你就很想哭，因为会想到你会走。。

心情不能愉快，也不知道要对你作出什么表情，说些什么。。

所以我才会冷淡，因为我很怕，我会被伤害。。

我不知道我应该做些什么。。

心痛啊。。

我也不知道怎样才可以有勇气，对你说

再见。。。

At His House!

I'm online-ing at his house! preapring to go to his 8th aunt's restaurant. the meals there are delicioussssss. btw, I dunno what dishes are they cause most are SPANISH+FRENCH+ITALIAN dishes. will updates the pictures soon :D

finally I can update my blog. hehe. this CNY was superb! full with activicties. firstly, going back to kampung. then came back from JB and my cousins came to stay overnight! once in a bluemoon. ^^

then went to SMK B.T.H.O. 2-friends-house-visitation. their houses are getting bigger and bigger and bigger as we visit, which makes me feel so envious. lols. then me and my cousins (not forgetting my babe) went to SUNWAY. had loads of fun there and my babe kept bullied by my cousins. hahas.

kays, gotta go. will update soon. =)

Ever Wonder

what does it feels like when you see the person you ONCE loved doesn't care about you anymore? ok, I don't mean that 'love', but it comes with respect. now their in two different world. I've got mine, you've got yours. I don't expect you reading this, so nevermind. hahas.

it hurts when seeing a place that once belong to you, became some other people. soon, the brain will dye away the memories together, and replacing with the new ones. too bad the heart doesn't erase the feelings. seeing our previous picture brings tsunami to my head. the bitterness, tears, laughters, all came back as good as new. I realised that it ain't that easy to forget. yet whenever I do this, the hurt comes back, and the love will turn to hatred. so I've decided to let go.

now that I must forget you, I will. no more harsh feelings, no love, no hatred, NOTHING.

I promised myself not to drop another tear for you.

Excited?

are you excited? CNY is coming~! those who love $$$ will get what they want, those shopaholic will get to wear their fashionable clothes, only adults wouldn't like CNY. if they are married larh. hehe.

well surprisingly, I'm NOT excited this year. ok, not 100% excited. only excited to wear my new clothes. hahas. dunno why I'm so calm this year. probably knowing something ahead of me isn't a really good idea.

*sighs*

these days ur so damn busy. I feel so free. so ironic. whenever I'm busy, ur always there to kacau me. now that I'm free, no one 'kacau's me. you can imagine me as this:

WOW.

although we planned to go out after CNY, you said maybe you'll be busy that time. so I'm not really excited about it anyway. or else I'll go high myself, fall down and hit hard. haiz.

what should I do??

Lonelinesssss

finally I can update this dying blog. it's not i don't want to, but i have a tigeress at home. hehe.

I'm sick! and it's before CNY! so ironic. ughh. even Vigna knows how to joke about this.

"how on earth can you be sick before CNY lahhh"

=.=

feeling kinda lonely~

my phone is decomposing, or growing 'mushrooms'.

lazy to do homeworks and also because I'm sick. dun wanna use too much of my brainss. everything seems so swell, yet, still feeling lonely.

I ain't Miss Mighty.

Wondering

hmm. these days had been wondering about makeups. what's the diffrence??

let's see an example:

before makeup

after makeup

hmm. for me, I think i look worse if i makeup. (sorry auntie >.<)

ANOTHER RANDOMNESS! :D

Laughters

hahahahahahahahaha. I love to laugh =)

sad that today Mikko can't come. missed a lot of homeworks (i doubt she'll feel sad about this though), missed all the laughters. hope you'll get well faster ya dear!

today only me & SL "xiang yi wei ming". lolx. talked everything we can, from chinese new year to couples. dunno how these both linked though. she asked me a VERY RANDOM question.

"Jin Ing, if I am with a guy that you wouldn't expect, how would you feel??"

"example?"

"erm... Abdul??"

"ARE YOU OUT OF YOUR MIND!?"

"hahahaha.. what if Firdaus??"

"......*speechless*....."

"hahahaha (happy to see my weird expression :S)...... let's see, who else huh?"

"LKY!! Vigna!! AFHAM!!!"

"HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA........."

(purple because both of us laughed! ;D)

then we laughed until we're exhausted. what random question is this huh. cute SL and me. we actually imagined SL being with the guys mentioned above. very HILLARIOUS. :D

*don't go out and play so often la dearrr.

*ur gonna work tmr! again! =.=

*craving of more SUSHI! xD

26/1/2010

as following my blog title, I'm a RANDOM PERSON. so don't get freaked out if I suddenly talk something else. get use to it :D. I believe my friends have gotten used to it. hehe.

Today I'm gonna blog about TSUBASA CHRONICLES SONGS!! recently fell in love with it again. Their songs are EMO enough, ARTISTIC enough, and BEAUTIFUL. but to some people, they may seem weird. (like Dear James. xD)

beautifully made ;D

*(Cardcaptor Sakura)

okies, enough boasting about Tsubasa. (but I really like it! xS)
these days didn't talked to Michelle. finally today got the chance to chat with her! yeay. so, I done my duty as a friend as in keeping myself updated?? hehe.

kays, gonna post another random thing some other time. gotta busy! ^^

btw, Teacher said my best area currently is a pianist! and it links CLOSELY to RANDOM! ;D

*trying to force myself to eat more and exercise.....ughh

*doing my best to be a good student? hahas

*Goal after SPM: get distinction for my YAMAHA and get a scholarship! (haven't come out goals for SPM though. lol)

21/1/2010

haiz.

these days are like hell man. homeworks and presentation are like flowing river. draining out my energy and brain juice. so don't get freaked if I act silly or what-so-ever.

only get a few minutes to post this thing. just wanna tell...

I'm busy.

I'm tired. whether physically or mentally.

feeling quite dark sometimes.

argghh.

*sighs*

11/1/10

ahas.. firstly, have to say sorry to michelle dear and 'secret admirer' for waiting so long =)

school reopened, I'm in first class, so I've been doing honework like crazy!! sad that I don't have my favourite Maths teacher =( other teachers are so and so lo, nothing great. haha. SAD michelle is not with us =( seems so quite in class! she's the one who always wake us up whenever we wanted to sleep. hehe. PLUS, the classroom is soooooo 'comfortable' in the sense that it's so HOT that we're always so SLEEPY. haha.

I MISS FORM4 LIFE.

only been to school for a week, and I started to stress out myself. OMG. what if i continued!? maybe I'll go mad. hahaha. how i wish I'm at a music college instead of this school. haiz. oh well, one more year to go, then I'm free!!! I can go and pursue my beloved music! ohya babe. lolx.

feeling kinda down these days... some of the reasons are as above, some are due to JCFO... lolx.

work...scholarships...overseas

I have no right to ask you to stay, but I'm still human =)

wish u'll get the things u want dear.

It's not easy to let go.

even how much u had hated someone,

love is still love.

u'd still want to see, feel and touch him/her.

the mark is still there,

no matter how u want to hide it,

u can't cheat youself, that,

u loved someone so much.

now, I can finally understand,

how on Earth GOD can continue to LOVE me so deeply.

=)